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Sweet Love Around Us! #LOVEEscapeProject




I don't know how they're met. But I bet for their happiness at the end. Though have no clue for what's up straight. I meet them on my way back to God, where that path is belonging to my lonely world. I see them fight, make up, argue and fight for each other's. But I always ask, did love need that kind of emotional things?

I have my trip always trap on my own mind so this time I decide to go with none of my business on it. I don't want only to feel in love with strange place and people. I want to also feel the odd of being an audience of a show that I can't even understand where's the interest on it. I go to accompany her to visit his house, in the small peaceful village and there where I should write about them.

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Yes, they do need. She loves him too much so that she conquers him to not let him self doing anything wrong, on his side. Anything dangerous, anything useless and anything makes her worry. Even e did much lies, makes her cry out. But there I can find something makes me feel awkward, how could they still be together? He haven't tell her where he goes, she doesn't let him to go anywhere outside after dark. He's not a kid anymore. that's why he's not a kid anymore. No rule, nothing tied the freedom of adult. Why he keep doing such as fool things? Something that he know it is useless for him t do and not his time anymore. That when she scolds him, he goes stoned heart. He's a man, he's an ego. Nobody can defeat man's ego.

She has to lie to him anytime he ask her where she'd gone. She's going outside, with her friends. Mingle and bounding into the society. Also does that for professionalism sometime. I accompany her. She did sincerely, there's no doubt for doing as a reason to cheat him behind. Why he keeps being insanely jealous? Why boys keep make a girl cry out? She. Only. Can. Cry.


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They keep making love. It's still on the road. They will keep doing it again, across the blues. Apart and greeting again like first love. They can be rude but can be very sweet at the very bipolar acts. Shout out rude words and flirting into each heart's. Sometime doing confession of sins. Be imprisoned by let not to talk to anyone or being a fool and act like a misery child then laught out loud when found out it is very funny to tease each other's.

The world is belong to someone who falls in love. Put them selves on fire and shoot the gun to the opposites, who try to defeat. Even-tough, it's a parent. They will never care about.

Then, where will it lead to? Let's read them. from page to page. And let them being what they are and what they will be. We are just audience and not the part of love story. We should create our own book, one day.



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Manufaktur 7 ( Unfelt )

Seriously,
The fullmoon above tonight sky is unfelt just not similiar to the last nightlight
Why am I sitting in here and doing nothing, while I can do sleep well
At least not write about you, about him or about them
My mighty fallen.

Don't you love it when they come and go?
The fase that you'd love being so cold than serve their desires
Why don't you tell them that you're generating all things
Whether you ain't have any feeling, you can't feel anything

Why'd you love to keep it inside and being so introvert
In the other room another man being schizophrenia
And you're frozen inside your self
Can't forgive anything, can't forget anything
From the past and another past misplaced mistaken

There's a killer inside your soul
When nobody knows except you and God
Soul that you sold to human being sake is now sinking deep into the darken ocean cave
Only you and your God know where it burried and how to find it
Or a lucky treasure hunter
That loves experience darkness bottom of water

Keep Holding On, Good Girl!

Hey Bellas.

I'm not going anywhere at this weekend. A litle feeling of insecure being home alone with no television and music sounds. I love artificial noises!

So, this post will be actually dedicated as Curhat story of my love live. Because as I know, it doesn't run smooth, just like the other story of my life.

Have you ever been feel that you're so inloveable by anyone? And none wants your belong? I'm on your shoes now. But I'm kind of, Life's not end yet.

I was broken by many one sided love stories. Been thrown away, cheated and belong as the second choice. Cried for many nights has been drown in my darkness side that nobody will find out it's my true side. Because I hide it very mystical.

Here's the fact of my miserable love stories. There's none of boys that I like, do the same feeling like I do. I can't force them to love me. So when they left away I just say, It's Okay, don't cry! Or, when love turns panicly fire at wrong time I should force my self to walkaway. Try to not burn everything in wrong flame. In the same time, I hope that he will fight for me, chase after me. I'm kind of selfish personal. But my expectation is over. They never do that for me. I don't want to fight for love anymore, I did much! I got nothing, I don't want to fall in love again.

Then one day, when a man that I've ever loved say he will marry a girl, I cry to God at climacs of it. Asking to my self, what did I do? Am I doing something wrong? Do you send me Karma by now, God? Why nobody loves me? Can't I being loved at least one and forever? I want to be requiredable!
It's so messy mind. I don't know what to do anymore. I am only a human. I can't live alone with no feeling, I want to have someone tp be hang on. It is okay to have much people around me, bestfriends. But they also have life. They have their time to me, to always listen to me.But life's still incomplete. Where's the end of this life journey? Indeed, spend it with your loving one. Having a great home to belong and a great place to share your story. I just want love.

Life's so hard. I need to holding on and live it up. I try to pick up my mind, because it is useless even people say many positive things in case to calm me down but the true power to life is only on me, my self. So this time I say to my self. I will find that man who will love me, that person who will understand me more than me and that Bestfriend is lovely to make my days. But then one thing makes me realize. It is not about I believe there will be someone who loves me like I expect it to be. But it is about how loveable I am to be loved. Do I do my best to be the best to be choose, and am I ready to accept anything on them? Because love is acceptable and simply fill in.

And if love doesn't come yet at this near by time, God always have the plan to work on. So, don't mess up. Just Keep holding on, Good Girl!

Aimee Saras - It Was June (Lyric - First on Blog !)




It was June, Day 22
You said I love you 
Sounds too good to be true 
You're fine I didn't decline 
Since the day Ooo
You became mine 

Morning dew I knew it was you 
That makes the skies turn into blue
And when we walk true the wind breezes too cold
Let us be a fool

He makes my day that's all I can say
No one must tell me how I should be happy
Be still my heart baby baby still my soul 
Ooo you sweet tart you turn my half into whole 

Morning dew I knew it was you
That makes the skies turn into blue and when we follow thru
The wind breezes too cold 
Let us be a fool

Morning dew I know it was you
That makes the skies turn into blue
And when we walk true the wind breezes too cold and we'll be a fool 

It was June, Day 22
You said I love you
Sounds too good to be true

Morning dew I knew it was you
That makes the skies turn into blue
And when we follow thru and we'll have a clue and we shall do 
By the way do do do

Morning dew I knew it was you
That makes the skies turn into blue
And I'll say I do, only to you
I'll say I do do do
Do do do do I'll say I do, do
Wanna be with you, I'll say I do
And be a fool


Waalaa, since I fall in love with this song and can't find the lyric in any hell of Google can do everything in this world but I don't find it yet, so ... I make it my self! Then I sang it all day and night hahaha Because I'm in Love :D
You can sing it too, no matter how sour is your voice. When you're in love, everything sounds ... do do do do doooo~ 
Merci Beaucoup!

Thinking Out Loud (Falling In Love By Misterious Way)

I choose where to falling in love
I choose when to smile and musing deeply to the mesencephalon
Handle all the unstable motions by gaze away from personal sight of first impression
Deny isn't an easy way like receiving the unqualified job appliance letter
I'll be loving, always that way
To you ...
You choose who you will be falling for
You choose what you will never say about
Wasting times by replying all the girl sad story of plain advisery
Drifted to telling fascinating trip explanation
You'll be silence, like always that way
To me ...
Hers,
Will break your heart to 1990 ways after May first Cherry Blossoms
Then regretted brought to you by Manchester City and Pisa Tower
I don't get the clear way she tried to stand or just release that way
Him,
Will be broken 10091990 times before the movement to Mars
Then staged to role play the only one the most desireable
I can't get clear what he choose, neither to broke me first nor being twig snapped
People,
Glancing to both of us in their mystical eyes
Commenting the invisible romance
Currently having insensitive talk about love   
LoveQuoteFromProposalDaisakusen
Someone will be sinking
Someone will be lost
Everyone will be no talk
Everyone will be passed by
I'll be falling for
You, will be loved
By me, I'll be linked by
You, will come back (again).

Random Motion

Flos Violae. Street of colours. But black and white on screen-shot.
Did you try to put on some mystical words into?
Why don't you put up your mind up yet?

I'm in love to a very odd man
We've never met before yet make a hello even his presence is belong or not belonged
Somewhere I don't get anyway
I never seen as he's so coveted
"They move freely without a care in the world, constantly changing with the wind; while starts are sort of just stick on the sky"
Then all words become myth like an abandoned castle at cliff island
I'm just glued and trance like never want an ending badly

Flos Violae. Street of colours. But black and white on screen-shot.
I got that misted of a goodbye
Think deeply and hard in my brain

It's been odd to see the growing, even they've grew along with us
So do people think about us. Time flies like an arrow

Ayu Nglarani (Unconditional Sin)

Kadang-kadang aku terlalu mencintaimu
Sampai tidak tau harus berbuat apa
Seperti aku terlalu memahami teori kapitalisme karl marx
Tetapi aku tetap hanyut dalam lingkaran buruh-isasi
Seperti aku dibayar diupah dan dipekerjakan oleh tuhan hanya untuk bertahan hidup dan mencintaimu
Kadang-kadang aku terlalu merindukanmu
Seperti orang yang baru jadi tunanetra
Yang merindukan sejuknya kabut-kabut di pematang sawah ubud pada jam setengah 6 pagi
Kadang-kadang aku terlalu mendoakanmu
Kepada tuhan yang mempertemukan kita
Dimana kau lebih menyukai gadis manis yang suaranya merdu membaca quran yang akan kau Gandeng tangannya sambil menyaksikan keindahan aurora
Yang membuatku berdoa kepada tuhan yang maha esa
Yang maha membolak-balikkan hati
Yang kusayangi sepenuh hati
Tersenyumlah besok pagi
Seperti embun-embun di kaki gunung merapi

Kepadamu yang dimana aku selalu meyakini tuhan ada dan mengingat semua dosa
Bagaimana jika suatu hari nanti aurora muncul di langit labuan bajo?